Oops! Missed Something!

I was playing catching and remembering all the events over the past few months, but I forgot to add one particular event.

January 11, 2012

This was Violet's EDD. Like everything that happened with Violet the anticipation of the day was actually worse than the actual day. When we found out Violet died, the anticipation of her delivery was worse than it actually was. The anticipation of seeing Violet for the first time was worse than it actually was. The anticipation of leaving her at the hospital was worse than it actually was. The anticipation of her memorial service was worse than it actually was. And the anticipation of her due date was worse than it actually was.

We decided to have a family day. Nolan took off work and we went to the movies. Then we went to lunch and just enjoyed each other.
Nolan and I took some time to think about Violet. To miss her. To look at her photos. To hold her things. It was special and sad and we miss her.

One day we were mourning Violet's death again and the next day we were celebrating the news that we were having twins. It's just strange the way things work out, isn't it?